Intimacy

I'd do anything for it.

That used to be my thought process when it came to drinking.  Now, it's how I feel about intimacy.  

And what's even more surprising is how my definition of it has changed.  I used to think about intimacy as a physical act.  Now it's so much more.  I can find an intimate moment in a phone call, in a heartfelt and honest email, in a true and honest conversation, and sometimes even in a moment of silence.  That connection that comes with real intimacy is such a powerful thing.  It can literally nourish me, inspire me, and bring happiness to me.

But it is fleeting.  Just like all emotions, thoughts, experiences.  It comes and goes and trying to hang on to it only causes problems.  

But damn, it seems like it's been soooo long since I've felt it and that makes me sad.