Lost

Been awhile....

I'm working hard on my life.  I'm trying to make the changes and foster the personal growth that's been lacking for the past 42 years.

So why do I feel more lost than ever?

I can't stand my job.  My employer - on a good day - has the mental capacity of a ADHD fourth grader and the organizational skills of a hoarder.  But I cannot just quit.

I don't know what I want to do with my life.  But does that mean I have to suffer through this bullshit?  How come the more changes that I try to make, the more frustrated I become?   The more I read about people's progress and growth, the more I feel like I'm never going to get there.  The more yoga I practice, the more I feel like a fish flopping around in a studio. 

I'm looking for that light at the end of the tunnel and what I'm finding is a complete maze of tunnels and no lights.